A firm foundation amidst uncertainty

Today, I’m 15 weeks pregnant, and I was able to go to the OB, hear the baby’s heart beat on a Doppler, and even hear a solid thud of a kick. The reassurance of hearing that little fluttering, to know that the little heart is pumping away, takes a load off my mind.

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Squishy at 13 weeks, I can’t wait to see how big he/she is in early December!

And yet, I know I’ll repeat the cycle of fear and worry that followed me the past few weeks leading up to the appointment. In the second trimester, most of my symptoms are gone, and at this point, I can’t feel baby move just yet. The nausea and puking were almost reassuring, now that I look back, because I /knew/ baby was doing something.

But I’m relying on what I can see, what I can hear, what I can feel. But does the Bible not say, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.”? Whether I can feel little one or not, the One who made his/her form, and continues to do so, has that growing body in His hands.

“For I, the Lord your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, “Fear not, I am the one who helps you.” Isaiah 41:13

How thankful I am for these little glimpses at the life inside of me. May it be a reminder of the goodness I’ve been given, and a remedy for anxiety and distrust in the One who has it all under control. More than likely, this baby will be in my arms in April. But I will not take the goodness of the Lord for granted, nor fail to praise His wisdom if this is not meant to be.

 

 

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2 thoughts on “A firm foundation amidst uncertainty

  1. Joyce

    Wow! So exciting to hear of the good news. Stay positive because you are right God is in control. Can’t wait till the little one is in your arms too!

  2. Karen Cole

    Breanna, I look forward to possibly you posting on your blog, so I can follow your pregnancy-would LOVE to hear your thoughts as you go along.
    I love that you have your faith to guide and help you.
    As earthly beings, we get discouraged easily, and I know EVERYONE, has at times doubts, when we are hurt by other Christians, re your earlier posting about the people in the church that let you down.
    It is so easy to slip back into the hurt and fear when we are let down by humans!!!!
    Please let me know if you would prefer that I NOT follow your blog-I will understand.
    ANytime now you will experience the little fluttering kicks, or movement, and it is a feeling you will ALWAYS remember.
    I love you dearly, my beautiful Granddaughter, Love, Gramma

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